Friday, June 18, 2010

Destiny awaits at the end of the maze

One final commentary (for now) regarding reincarnation or the transmigration of souls and one last photograph of the view from the place which once was my "Sanctuary / Refuge" from the unpleasantness that so often seems to follow us wherever we go. This photo was taken from the deck of the house and, of course, shows South Dakota in the foreground, the Missouri River in the distance and Nebraska across the "wide Missouri."

I know I am deathless

Part 3 of 3 (for now)

My past few commentaries originated from thoughts arising from a question posed to me on June 4: "Do you believe in souls that have met in another life .... that meet again to try to fulfill what they didn’t in the past?"

My response at the time was this: "Believe might be too strong a word, since it requires actual belief and faith in something that probably cannot be proved. But, yes, I do think this.

"Two points: First, I think I have met such a person, and have spent a considerable amount of time communicating with her and actually being with her during the past year. Next, I think I will try to write a post on this subject in more detail and see where it might lead."

Walt Whitman, the poet whose verse I cited here a few days ago, once said these words: "I know I am deathless. No doubt I have died myself ten thousand times before. I laugh at what you call dissolution, and I know the amplitude of time."

While I might not have made the earthly circuit ten thousand times, I think I have come and gone this way a few times in the past. I have been considering the question posed to me, mental wandering with it, I guess is how I might describe the process, and have decided not to explore it here as thoroughly as I initially had planned.

The situation is too close, too personal yet, to write about in any detail. More time is required for me to free myself from the emotional entanglement and to view this chapter of this life in an objective manner. (Remember, I spent a number of years as a journalist, and I firmly believe that a state of objectivity can be achieved in viewing any situation, even when it personally involves the "reporter.")

That said, I will make a few general comments:

With respect to my "belief" that my soul and that of another have mingled in some manner in previous lives, I am not certain which of us broached this "feeling" first, but we both agreed that it was an actual reality and we both sensed it, felt it, understood it, believed it and accepted it as fact.

This phenomenon has only happened to me once in my life -- never before now. It involved much, much more than having common interests, and, in fact, included common dreams and sensations of being present and together although physically separated by a few thousand miles. To me, it was as though the only separation had been time itself, and a few thousand miles was the closest we had been to each other for an immeasurable length time.

When the two of us met face-to-face "this time around," I felt absolutely comfortable and at ease with her. It was like we were friends and lovers who had not seen each other for a year or two, and who were completely used to each other's presence in our lives. Every aspect of her personality and temperament was familiar to me. In a sentence, it was like I had known her throughout my entire lifetime -- or, possibly I should say, throughout my entire existence.

But, it also seemed that we had some major differences in the way we comprehend the world and view our individual roles within it. Perhaps, even irreconcilable differences, which means reaching the center of the maze together in the same instant probably is unattainable this time around. **

Time answers all questions in respect to life and living it -- or, again, possibly I should say in respect to existence then, now and the next time around. Who can say? It might well be my fate is to forever run the maze. Or, it could be I am Siddhartha, the ferryman, learning the essence of life from the river. And, when I finally have learned it, I will find myself in the center of the maze at precisely the right moment with the "One & Only Actual" -- whose name will be Destiny.

Since I am an authority on nothing, not even on myself, I will end this with the words of a man who was a recognizable authority on many things:

"My life often seemed to me like a story that has no beginning and no end. I had the feeling that I was an historical fragment, an excerpt for which the preceding and succeeding text was missing. I could well imagine that I might have lived in former centuries and there encountered questions I was not yet able to answer; that I had been born again because I had not fulfilled the task given to me." -- Carl Jung

** [The reference to running the maze comes from my description at the top of the page to this blog: "I learned romance might exist, but depends upon whether a man and a woman can tread the maze individually and reach its center at the same instant in time."]

Some lines from "Siddhartha"

by Herman Hesse

"He saw all these forms and faces

in a thousand relationships become newly born.
Each one was mortal, a passionate, painful example
of all that is transitory.
Yet none of them died, they only changed,
were always reborn, continually had a new face:
only time stood between one face and another."


Anonymous said...

I feel you are leaving again.The things you have been posting in here is great.But I undestand.The wheels goes around and around.Things must be done and continued.Take good time Fram.But I will be missing you.The highlight in my life these year.Iremember first post!!you said""But Anita,I love see people knitting,reading ect"From that time.I was seeking you.May be you felt it?I really hope it will work out for you.I know you have a strong connection to Praha.It is something you must do.Fullfill.For me.Ijust sit here on the fence.Watching life.Work alot.Soon go to Kypros visiting a friend .Take care Fram.I will miss.

Fram Actual said...

You read too much into what I was saying, Anita. The only thing I am stopping is writing any further at this point in time about my personal experience at having known other souls during past lives.

In this life, right now I am where I am, living in a townhouse in Minnesota, doing what I am doing, which is disposing of property and possessions so as to make myself unencumbered and, therefore, more free.

To repeat what I said in a post on June 3: "After my 'mini-lease' on the townhouse expires (at the end of August), my intent is to wander a bit and to visit some of my former American 'haunts' during September and, hopefully, return to Poland in October for three or four weeks before (maybe or maybe not) drifting on to somewhere else."

When I went to Poland last December, I was in a position to stay for up to a year, but not permanently. I have real estate to dispose of, plus personal property to either rid myself of or to put into some manner of semi-permanent, secure storage. When I do begin to travel again in the autumn, I want to be free of any burdens and obligations other than family matters.

In short, I expect to be writing here off and on at least until the end of August.

Anonymous said...

Sorry FRAM..I will not do it again!!I only was going to miss you.Thats all!!Take care..

The Fabulous Diva said...

Sweet Fram, It's always good to hear from you. And yes, I am happy and contented, more than I have been in a long time. How long it will last? Only the Gods know, but I will take it and enjoy it.

Do I believe in Re-incarnation? In a word---YES---There has been some serious research into this field, although some would call it psudo-science, there is a book called "Finding Grace" (I hope I have the right title) which deals with one individuals' hunt for a past life that she found unfolding.

But there have been things that have happened to me, in which as you have, I've found being comfortable with, like I've done it before, been there before, been with this person before.

I could have myself regressed to see if I've lived a past life but because I read history books, how much of that is real and how much is locked away in my memory? So that is chancy.

I do know this---I've found the old parts of San Francisco to my liking, films of the old west and from the 1940's showing scenes of a city of that time always have a familar feel to me.

When I found my country house, I felt like I found a place familar to me, the area, everything.

Now I feel like I could travel in a covered wagon, or something like that---I have been slowly edging to old west things because of that sense of familarity. Baby Sis feels comfortable with things from the 1930's and 40's as does her fiancee.

It's either re-incarnation or a rebellion against all the over modernization of the 21st century and a yearing for something simpler.

So Re-incarnation does make sense to me.

You got some "shootin' time" in with your Colt---I'm jealous. I haven't had a chance of late, I've got to get back to the range.

I'm glad that you are happy and have made some decisions. It sounds like a new direction for you that is much needed.


The Fabulous Diva said...

P.S. Yes I will "dock" on occasion on my blog, if nothing else to at least give a 'solid' voice to my thoughts to see where I am going.

I hope on occasion you will do the same.


Fram Actual said...

There is no reason to be sorry, Anita. I only wanted to clarify what I am doing right now.

Fram Actual said...

It is so nice to see you here again, Diva. After all, this blog was named with the thought of you in mind, so, in a sense, your spirit always dwells here, too.

I rather expected that reincarnation would be a viable probability in your philosophy of existence. Deja-vu often is written off as an element of pure imagination or inexplicable fantasy, but the presence of "kindred souls" and an innate knowledge of places and things in our lives certainly must be more than a simple flight of the imagination.

It is nice to think that our paths will continue to cross now and then on these pages. Take care and stay safe ....

Something special ....